Monday, January 5, 2009

FREEDOM's Just Another Word for Something Left to Lose

I'm hot on FREEDOM today... the fear of it, the responsibility of it, the sheer joy of it! I collected a few quotes that really spoke to me.

Ultimately we know deeply that the other side of every fear is a freedom. ~Marilyn Ferguson
As far as your self-control goes, as far goes your freedom. ~Marie von Ebner-Eschenbach
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others. ~Marianne Williamson
Freedom is nothing else but a chance to be better. ~Albert Camus
In the truest sense, freedom cannot be bestowed; it must be achieved. ~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

I have been thinking a lot about the missing link in my weightloss program, and what I really desire. First, I still have pounds left to lose, weight of which I want and need to get FREE. I decided I really desire to feel FREE, inside and free as I did when I was a child! I figure I can have that feeling, but now I must pay a steeper price for it. I must pay the price of honoring all my obligations to others and myself, and in doing that I find freedom. In that freedom, I find the impetus to do the most positive thing for myself and release these toxins that are imprisoning my body. But as I pursue this freedom, I want to do it lightheartedly, without a sense of being driven. More with a sense of joyfilled determination. Pressing on, firmly yet with ease. There is a fine line between being enthusiastically engaged, and being an unbalanced zealot.

One of my obligations to myself is to put myself in the best position possible for success in regaining a healthy body. That includes putting into practice on a daily basis ALL the things I have learned and doing it NOW. If I know clutter leads to confusion... leads to despair = depression = emoeating, I have to tackle clutter immediately. Same thing with things left undone. Same thing with tempting foodstuffs.

Today I'm making a list of the things I know lead ME to failure in my healthquest/weight-release, and use them as a personal challenge for the next 21 days, along with my Liquid Feast cleansing, which I LOVE to do when I am prepared for it! So here goes, prepping for THE LAST DAY ONE:

  • Clutter
  • Things Left Undone
  • Free Myself From Gnoshing In Front of the TV
  • Trigger Foods Out-of-Sight
  • Healthy Raw Food Eyelevel in Fridge
  • LEARN how to use Juicer!
OKAY... I ended up with seven on my list, which is a perfect number, so the Monk-side of me is satisfied and at peace with that. I may not end up with seven every day, but hey, I'm FREE to have as few or as many things on my Freedom List as I want. I put these on a yellow legal pad-- doncha just LOVE a yellow legal pad?-- so I can have my personal focus list separate from my business calendar. Should further eliminate some of the complication which will invariably throw me into limbo about taking specific action. Limbo is the single most dangerous place I can be in this journey, and not a destination that is healthy for me, ever.

I'm excited to see how the rest of the day and tomorrow pans out!

Oh heck, let's just go ahead and say it: I'm excited to see how the rest of my life pans out!

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